Saturday, September 19, 2009

Just After Sunset

From Singles 2009


Just finished King's most recent short story collection. King. Short stories. It's a good combination.

Kevin read the collection first. He generously let me keep the book (on his library card...and you know how risky that sort of behavior can be...) and even made a list for me rating the stories from most to least favorite. Since I recognized I had a limited time to read this before it was recalled, I started reading from the top of Kevin's list rather than reading from the first page of the book.

So, I liked the book...some good creepy stories. I read them all. Eventually. I had to actually return the book and ask the librarian to allow me to check it out again on my card.

What I found most interesting, however, was how very different Kevin and my taste in stories was. If you took Kevin's list and turned it upside down, you'd get my list. He preferred the suspenseful, imminent danger tales, while I'm more disposed to a quiet, subtle, ghost story. And, monsters. Monsters rated much higher in my list than his. Now, doesn't that surprise you?

What he's articulating is a delusion, and part of him knows it - 'shadows that looked like faces,' etc. - but it's very strong, and strong delusions travel like cold germs on a sneeze.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Games....

From Singles 2009


Well, it's official. I am not a winner in the Small World game design competition. Don't ask me how that could have happened. Who would NOT want to play with Cursing Mummies? or, better yet... a race of Pizza Delivery Boys. Must have been some sort of mix up.

Or, perhaps, the judges have heard that I don't actually like the game that much. I just haven't gotten my mind around it and unfortunately in my last two plays of it there's been a player in each game who, even though I was CLEARLY in last place, decided to REPEATEDLY pummel me. Just not fun. Maybe if I had a pizza, however...

Anyway, if YOU are a Small World fan and if you are intrigued, I'll give you the details. You'll be responsible for your own artwork, however.

Mummies - While active if mummies are attacked they curse their opponent who must then remove one of his tokens from the game.

Pizza Delivery Boys - At the end of each of their turns, the PDB's deliver a (single) pizza to an opponent on an adjacent territory. The tokens on that territory cannot be moved during the next turn. They're too busy eating pizza to participate in any further attacks.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West

From Singles 2009


Melena buried her face in her hands….”It’s not that I don’t love Frexx! But I hate being better than the local peasant idiots!”
“Well, now this green child brings you down to their level, you ought to be pleased,” said Nanny meanly.


Obviously, I've just caught up on the life and times of the Wicked Witch of the West. And, what a ride it was. Pure magic! Ninety-nine million times more fun than the "Wizard of Oz". I cheered her on! I laughed! I cried! Well, I was at least very disappointed to have the story end.

"She's sent the crows out to blind the guests coming for dinner!"
"What?"
"SHE'S BLINDING THE GUESTS COMING FOR DINNER!"
"Well, that's one way to avoid having to dust, I suppose."


Plus, I learned important child rearing tips....should that ever be necessary.

“Bleeding is good for them, makes them less hungry.”

Fractions in the Southern Hemisphere

Typically, a work day goes from 8:30 AM to 6:00 PM. On Saturdays we're only working half days.

That would be 8:30 to 4:00.

I don't think I'll ever catch on.

Monday, September 07, 2009

FAME



Once again, I am probably the last to know... they've remade "Fame". I think I've seen this movie more times than any other film. It certainly spoke to me in 1980. And, watching this scene from graduation (I'm undoubtedly ruining the ending for someone), I get goosebumps again.

And, in time, we will all be stars!

Sunday, September 06, 2009

Noooooooooooooooooooooooo

From photo a day


I guess I can't call these my good jeans any longer. Sigh. Time to schedule my next trip home. Shopping to do.

Today is

From photo a day


National Bilby Day! Complete with one of the men who killed the Easter Bunny...
From photo a day


and chocolate bilbies.
From photo a day

Saturday, September 05, 2009

I am being very good

I am not waking Kevin to tell him that there are now DARK CHOCOLATE Reese's Peanut Butter Cups in the US.

And, I haven't bought a flight over, either.

Sainthood. It is only a matter of time.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Having a great day!

From photo a day


I'm off on a Tuesday. Pretty odd. But, my boss had things to do out of town Wed through Friday and he thought I might like to have a day off sometime. (Amen to that!) So, I took a walk with lots of sweating. Ran a few errands including buying more chocolate and daffodils. Now, I'm enjoying the air conditioning while the dish washer washes up...then I need to get busy with making TACOs for supper. And, a kidney bean salad. (I'm supposed to be eating Red Food - but that is another story.) Then, we're off to see "District 9" at Chermside.

Oh, and best of all, I caught a second gecko in the bedroom. Maybe one day our bedroom will be free of gecko poo.

Medical Update

I came home yesterday to find a message from my "regular" doctor on our answering machine. She wanted me to know that she's trying to keep abreast of all my testing and to let me know that my latest test was completely normal.

Since the doctor is investigating whether I have a cyclic condition, that may not mean I'm "fixed" but just that I'm on the upside of my curve. Time will tell.

In the meantime, I've lost the doctor's order for one week of my labwork (two tests.) Kevin's concerned that the doctor will think I'm misrepresenting this in order to score two more blood draws like some sort of inverse-vampire-junkie.

Where did I put my leeches?

I'm melting........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

While this should be a blog about "Wicked" which I just finished, it is, instead, about the god-awful heat we're having. Let's see. September marks the beginning of spring (and I know it is spring because I bought daffodils at the green grocer this afternoon. Yes, they sell yellow things there. And, red.) So, that would translate into Northern Hemisphere as March/April. As I was driving home with my loot I passed a time and temperature sign. It said, "35."

Let me help you. That's 95 degrees Fahrenheit!!!!!!!!

Zelda is parked in front of the air conditioner. She's feeling abused because I waited too late to schedule her summer hair cut.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Congratulations !

From EKKA 2009

to my test-taking husband. Way to go! Now you can explain to me what Native Americans have to do with Australian flag displays.

And, I won't tell ANYONE that you missed one question...

(Kevin passed his citizenship exam.)

Friday, August 21, 2009

Salute to the Great Darke County Fair!



I'm missing The Greatest County Fair on EARTH! Gee, I hate that.

I always go with my mother. And, on a good year, I go more than once. I don't have many photos worth looking at from the fair and even fewer have I scanned and brought with me. But these three will give you an idea on why I love the fair.

#1. Animals and art. Sometimes, they are the same. And, the best is the kids' art.

#2. Our favorite area is under the coliseum where they exhibit the flower arrangements, fresh produce, baked goods. (Though by the end of the week the baked goods are a bit scary.) I salute the creativity that Darke County folks put into things like displaying canned pickles.

#3. I share this with my mother. She buys my ticket and I buy her pie. Tradition. It's a terrible thing to waste.

#4. GIANT SQUASH and TALL SUNFLOWERS.)

I'm missing The Greatest County Fair on EARTH! Gee, I hate that.

August Birthdays!



Happy Happy Happy...

to Elaine,

and Dixie.

Carroll,

Joyce,

and Mary Kay.

Anna

and, once again, Veronica.

Looking under the bridge on Beams Road

I walked down to the "stream" to get a photo of the ocean of elephant ears that grow there, and discovered the underside of the bridge is covered with graffiti. Here's a taste. (After a while I started feeling a bit vulnerable down there.)

Australian flora



These are blooming now...on my walk to the lab this morning.

Blood letting

Friday. 21 August.

Forth sample taken. Two weeks down.

Today I had a different phlebotomist. A young man who asked me where my accent came from.

"The U.S."

"I knew it wasn't Canada. Let's see, not California."

"No"

"Not Texas"

"No"

"Where?"

"Come on. You've got 48 more guesses."

I asked him how he knew the difference between a Canadian accent and an American since I think it is very subtle and no one else seems to know.

He has a friend in California. And, he's learned that Americans and Canadians don't like each other.

I told him I didn't believe that. But, I admit here that I'm tired of people asking about my Canadian accent. Not that there is anything wrong with Canadians. I'm not racist. Some of my...

He told me he'd like to travel to the United States but he's afraid of all the people with guns. Then, he explained that if he did travel to the US the first thing he'd like to do was go to a gun store and BUY A GUN.

"Do you have to be an American? or can anyone buy a gun?"

"I have never tried to buy a gun. I don't know."

Well, he wanted to buy a gun and then take it to a shooting range and shoot it...and then sell the gun.

"I think you can probably just rent a gun from a shooting range," I told him.

"Yes, but then I wouldn't OWN one."

America's Favorites

From Singles 2009


have arrived!

Many thanks to USA foods in Melbourne!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

EKKA 2009

From Singles 2009


Saturday (Aug 7) Kevin and I braved the "flu del swine" to visit The Exposition. We must admit that a widespread fear of contagion adds a lot to our enjoyment of the experience. There weren't many people wearing face masks. (Were they the sick? the fearful? or the children of Michael Jackson?) Instead, there were a lot of people staying home. Walking the midway, seeing the exhibits, viewing the showbags - these were all much, much, much easier for us than we'd ever before encountered.

We found ourselves largely incapable of watching any big ring competition. Each time we made it to the grandstand some contest was just finishing up. Same was true for the canine obedience trials. We did, however, get to watch the honey bee show and the Pekingese and Longhair Weimaraner dogs conformation competition. (I didn't even KNOW there were Longhair Weimaraners!)

This year we spent much more time enjoying the midway...even staying late to see the lights come on. We did not, however, ride any of the rides, see any of the freak shows, or play any of the games.

I hope you enjoy the photos. I went a little crazy.

Spring is coming!


While it is only just August, I am seeing signs of Spring. (You have to look closely around here since winter looks pretty darn green.)

The jasmine is budding.

My sweet peas are sprouted.

And, the mango is thinking of spiking up its unattractive flowers.

For the first time, I've succeeded in growing nasturtium. I was speaking with my mother today about them and she shared with me her memory of playing among nasturtium when she was a little girl- how good they smelled and how that smell still brings her a joyful feeling.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Medical report

Finally, on Saturday I met with my hematologist about the bone marrow study he did about a month ago.

Fifteen vials of blood and who-knows-how-many dozen vials of marrow produced two unique values:
subnormal number of neutrophils (now 1.7, up from 1.2 but still less than 2.0) and
an elevation in T8 lymphocytes.


So, the investigation continues. For the next 6 weeks I will have a blood test twice weekly. (That would be 12 blood samples for the algebraically impaired.) On the final visit they will reassess the T lymphocytes, as well.

The T cells may just be a viral infection - and it may take months to clear that. The neutrophils may be just who I am. Nothing to worry about.

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Medical Report

I don't have that yet. If you've been kind enough to be thinking healthy thoughts for me and my bone marrow, I thank you. I DO have an appointment this week on Saturday to get results. Until then, I am fine.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

I can't believe I finally succeeded!

From Singles 2009


and now, maybe, we'll have a quiet bedroom!

Back for a visit!

From Singles 2009


All grown up! Well, mostly. It is still impossible to get a photo. The boy just won't stop! (Note tail.) He's up to 3.6 kg which is exactly double the weight he was when I saw him last. (I hadn't seen him since he had his stitches removed and found a new home.) We had have a serious talk with his new family about getting Frankie neutered. I guess there is someone out there who thought he should be a father...but, as cute as he is, he did have a congenital problem that you wouldn't wish on any puppy. Most such puppies don't get a free fix-up from some soft hearted vets. Frankie needs to remain one of a kind.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Fear of Flying

From Singles 2009


"What happens when people die?" I asked her.

"They don't really die" she said. "They go back into the earth and after a while they get born again, as grass or maybe even as tomatoes."

I've really taken a detour from Burke. This is the problem with the intersection of me and the Brisbane library. At our local branch they have, I believe, two titles by James Lee Burke. So, on my quest to read the collection in order I need to make timely requests from the greater library system to please deliver a book to Chermside library. In the mean time, I find myself tempted to stray. And, "Fear of Flying" fit exactly into that temptation paradigm. First, it was actually a recorded book - and those don't really count as cheating on Burke. Secondly, recently I read "Tipping the Velvet" - lesbian erotic fiction so I thought it was maybe time to read some heterosexual erotic fiction.
But maybe I already was a hostage. The hostage of my fantasies. The hostage of my fears. The hostage of my false definitions. What did it mean to be a woman, anyway? If it meant being what Randy was or what my mother was, than I didn't want it. If it meant seething resentment and giving lectures of the joys of childbearing, then I didn't want it. Far better to be an intellectual nun than that!

But the intellectual nun was no fun either. She had no juice. And, what were the alternatives? Why didn't someone show me the alternatives?

Except, it really isn't. Despite what it says on the "jacket". Despite the amount of sexual activity and the heavy population of "f" and "c" words. Rather, it is a novel about a woman's search for herself. A search conducted in psychoanalysis, in sexual and romantic relationships, with her family and her lovers, in the revolutionary 1960s. Born to an artistic mother in the 1940's who was frustrated by her "choice" to raise her children rather than pursue her art, Isadora internalized the messages of her mother (you can be yourself or you can be a wife and mother) and "good girl" messages of the 1950's America she grew up in.
"...But there it is: I want everyone to love me".
"You lose," Adrian said.
"I know but my knowing doesn't change anything. Why doesn't my knowing ever change anything?"

The middle of the book dragged a bit for me, possibly because this isn't the best sort of book to be just listening to - action is much better for that. It was a fascinating exploration of that time, of being a woman (then/now), and of psychoanalysis (and of how psychoanalytic theory views women.) It has been years and years and years now since I've had to teach personality theory and so it was fun to be reminded of those "heady" ideas. Someday, I'm thinking, I'll read this again.

I can't believe I never thought of this!




I need to get married again! Who wants to join me??

Friday, July 24, 2009

Just to show you can't trust ANYONE

From Singles 2009


She is waiting to come inside! Trojan cocker bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dexter by Design

From Singles 2009


'First things first' has always been my motto, mostly because it makes absolutely no sense- after all, if first things were second or third, they wouldn't be first things, would they?


Let's see, I think this is book 4 and it is a vast improvement over book 3. We've got a real bad guy, an amusing cameo from our friend Sgt. Doakes, art!, and fun family interaction between Dexter and his kids. I must say that these are the most fun children I've encountered in recent (literary) history. (Of course, I have a really terrible memory for things I've read, watched, heard, said or done... but otherwise - top notch!) If you haven't read or seen anything from Dexter - Miami's serial-killer, forensic blood splatter expert - I need to tell you that these children who he's now married into (onto, what would the preposition be?) are damaged like he was as a child. They are little sociopaths. (Undoubtedly, that makes them more fun to read about than to spend time with.) Dexter recognizes what they are and they have made an arrangement that he will teach them to channel their blood-lust in the way that his adoptive father, Harry, taught him. They are eager. Pushy, at times.

"So," Deutsch said relentlessly, "what brings you to Scouting, Cody?"
Cody glanced at me. I smiled, and he turned back to Deutsch "Have fun," he said, his small, deadpan face looking like he was at a funeral.
"Great," said Deutsch. "Scouting should be fun. But there's a serious part, too. You can learn about all kinds of cool things. Is there anything special you really want to learn about, Cody?"
"Animal carving," Cody said, and I had to fight not fall out of my tiny chair...


Black comedy. Its all me.

Happy Birthday, Kevin!



a bit late getting this published! Happy Day!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

It's here! It's here!

From Singles 2009


A BIG THANK YOU to the Pet Photobooth people!!!!!

Sitcoms



Kevin and I have just finished watching both the Judd Apatow television sitcoms "Undeclared" and "Freaks and Geeks" as well as the first two seasons of "The Big Bang Theory". We have had a really good time.

TBBT is a gift from Georgia. She introduced Kevin to the program when he stayed with them in Columbus this year. As people with significant geek quotas (though Kevin scoffs at mine) we particularly enjoy Sheldon - though we've discussed that Kevin really should try to refrain from embracing too much of Sheldon's approach to humanity. We are troubled by the character of Penny who lives next door. How is it that she, as a waitress at The Cheesecake Factory, can afford to live alone in this apartment building while Sheldon, an employed physicist, needs a roommate to make the rent? OK. Their apartment is bigger...but really. In addition, who really believes that Leonard could be happy with Penny? And, where are the smart and normal (though I'm happy to see Sara Gilbert, again) women??

"Undeclared" - had an aborted single season in 2001 when I was living in Fayetteville. I really enjoyed the show and wanted to share it with Kevin. After the first couple of episodes, however, he noted that perhaps I was more nostalgic having had a much better time in college (university for you Australians). And, I admitted that I also had great memories of teaching college freshmen. Still, Kevin loves me and he persevered and ended up attached to the show. The characters are honest and vulnerable and the last couple of episodes are very, very, very funny.

"Freaks and Geeks" - was one of my Christmas gifts to Kevin. I had read a review of the best DVDs from 2008 and picked out this plus "Frisky Dingo" (and I believe I've already told you what a HUGE hit that was this us.) Like "Undeclared", it took several episodes for us to warm up to it - but we ultimately found it to be, again like "Undeclared", touching and funny and the performances excellent.

Now, Kevin has never been a fan of Apatow films, but we think we've figured it out. Maybe he'll just need to watch them for about 8 hours straight to get into the groove - or Apatow will have to write 8 hour movies.

Anyway, we're going to miss Sam, Neil, Bill, Lindsay, Kim, Daniel, Nick and Ken...Steven, Lizzie, Rachael, Lloyd, Ron and Marshall...but, we know how it would ultimately end-

with a large spaceship descending and an imposing woman asking them "where are their clothes"?

Doing what I can to advance feminism in The Great Down Under

Twice in the last two weeks I have been completing a form orally: once in a local health food store (Newsletter! Discounts!) and most recently when checking into the hospital.

"Surname?
Given name?
Is that Miss or Mrs?"

To which I reply, after a moment of confusion, "I don't use either of those titles."

And, I am met with stunned silence as the poor woman (in both cases) tries to figure out what that could mean and what she should do next.

I don't get involved in a discussion. I just remain title-less - are titles really necessary in this day and age? Particularly for the purpose of a newsletter?? Or, in the case of the hospital, because she pushed for a title but seemed to have none to offer, I chose Dr. Really, I should have chosen Ms and if I could go back and do it again, I would.

These people need to be introduced to the concept that a woman's status does not have to be defined by her relationship to a man. "A woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle." (I am doing what I can in my little corner of the world where EVERY woman who calls in to the clinic gets the title Ms slapped on her little surname...at least when I answer the phone.)

Furthermore, it would make no sense in their patriarchic paradigm for me to be either Miss D or Mrs D.... if Miss defines an unmarried woman and Mrs refers back to the man to whom she is married.

There is one exception- a shout out to my friend and colleague Dr. Gates - to whom I shall always be Mrs D.

I have survived!

From Singles 2009


I have just returned from the hospital where I didn't just get a bone marrow biopsy, but I scored an abdominal ultrasound, an ECG, a blood pressure, and the opportunity to have 15 vials of blood drawn. I decided to approach the entire day with an attitude of curiosity. That helped.

I learned that having an IV catheter burns a little, even when nothing is being injected and that when something it, that something feels interestingly cool.

I learned that if you leave a tourniquet on during a blood draw you can affect the results of Calcium measurement - and maybe more. I'm not sure that we can use that information since our human tourniquets are helping restrain our patients and keep the vein in one place. Plus, we never draw more than 3 small vials of blood.

I learned there are yellow topped and pink topped tubes.

I was surprised that a person would order 4 blue top coagulation test samples and then not actually do a coagulation test before doing a bone marrow biopsy.

My ECG is normal. My blood pressure 124 over 62 and my pulse was 70.

With concentrated deep breathing I am able to maintain my 02 saturation at 100%. Without this it tends to be 98%.

Of the biopsy itself, I remember NOTHING. I was a bit alarmed when my doctor came in draped in a plastic apron reminiscent of what a butcher might wear. I don't remember much beyond noting that the midazolam, like the saline flush, only felt cool and that I wasn't feeling relaxed or sleepy.

Then, I woke up.

Other observations:

Weird-o lunches served. No wonder type 2 diabetes is rampant. Four quarter sandwich wedges- egg salad (YUCK), turkey, ham, cheese. In true Aussie form these sandwiches were slathered in butter on both slices of bread and had one or two narrow slices of meat. (I took the meat/cheese off and whatever vegetable bits and put them all on one sandwich wedge.) Side dishes: bread pudding and vanilla ice cream - gluten free. (WTF? Why worry about gluten after the rest of that meal???) Apple juice to drink and coffee/tea.

How hard is it to spell Ann without an e?? The country is vowel happy!

Monday, July 13, 2009

Tomorrow is the big day

I have my bone marrow biopsy. I am supposed to arrive at 9 - but I'll be there about 7 AM. Eager.

I am expecting to be there until mid afternoon. Not sure when I will get any results.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

This makes me laugh

From photo a day


though very quietly and only when no one is watching. I've put this bouquet in the an old spice jar - that used to contain thyme.

Open house at Guide Dogs

Every day I drive to work I pass Queensland's Guide Dog breeding/training facility. So, since they were having an open house last Sunday, I thought I'd like to go. We arrived too late to see any of the performances - but got to tour a kennel, see yellow labbie puppies playing, watch a 15 minute Guide Dogs video (which we could have purchased but failed to do so). We also picked up some of their secret training tips:
From Singles 2009

1. They frighten puppies into submission by threatening to feed them to clowns
From Singles 2009

2. or with scary yellow eyed, disco dancing construction workers.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Books, books, books

I've fallen behind here. Nothing new about that whether the topic is my blog, my letter writing, or my housework. And so, while Kevin does his hour of devotion to his most recent cool project and I wait to start our together time of "Dominion Intrigue" and "Freaks and Geeks", I'm going to try to get myself caught up in a hurry. Note to self: Be brief.

So, first: the books.

...manners are of more importance than morals, and , in its opinion, the highest respectability is of much less value than the possession of a good chef. And, after all, it is a very poor consolation to be told that the man who has given one a bad dinner, or poor wine, is irreproachable in his private life. Even the cardinal virtues cannot atone for half-cold entrees.

Kevin picked me up a copy of Oscar Wilde's "The Picture of Dorian Gray" while he was shopping at the big "Lifeline" used book sale. First, just let me say : I liked the book. I enjoyed the story, the concept, and Wilde's witticisms.

But

I liked the book but found it to be tedious at times. The action doesn't really start until about page 100: and that is page 100 of a 250 page book. And, while I appreciated a number of Wilde's observations, after page 150, when the action slows down again, there are places where paragraph after paragraph we are reading lists. "An example?" you ask as you have obviously not read "Dorian Gray". Well, everybody knows that Dorian Gray remains ever youthful in appearance and so, what is an immortal to do (if that immortal has lots of money) but study and/or collect things; and, from the top of page 156 to the bottom of page 158 you can read a description of some of those jewels. I must admit on more than one occasion I committed the sin of skimming.

Kevin cued me in on the fine are of flinging which has been sadly lacking in my own life though I hope to take a page from Wilde and reintroduce it with gusto.
Lord Henry flung himself down on the divan

Lord Henry flung himself down into a large wicker arm-chair

the painter flung himself down on a sofa

Then he lit a cigarette, and flung himself down on the sofa

she flung herself at his feet

Then he rose from the table, lit a cigarette, and flung himself down on a luxuriously-cushioned couch

he flung himself into the rickety chair


"The Forgotten" by Faye Kellerman and "4th of July" by James Patterson and Maxine Paetro

The master bedroom had its own deck and its own cerulean view. The bed was a king and dressed with white lace pillows piled high over a while down-filled comforter. Very serene except for the black powder all over the walls and bed frame, not to mention the dead body smashed up against the wall. It spoiled the Zen effect.
- from "The Forgotten"

OK. Kevin knows, and you should too, I really like a gruesome crime novel. I'm not a psychopath, really. I cut my teeth on horror as a kid and then matured into crime/mystery/thriller. But now, I feel like I've been ruined by James Lee Burke. Now, I want some lyrical prose, some three dimensional characters, and a really, really, really bad-ass villain. I can let the first two of these cravings drop a bit, however, when I'm listening to a book on tape. (Or, CD for those who demand the literal truth.) Then, page turning (so to speak) suspense and action will come a long way in satisfying me.

A long way, but not ALL THE WAY.

Both "The Forgotten" and "4th of July" were easy enough to listen to. In both cases I was happy to sit in the car an extra few minutes to hear a bit more of the story. In both books the crimes were sufficiently disturbing, but in both books I was woefully disappointed by the bad guys.

SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER

Really, I expect so much more from James "Kiss the Girls" Patterson. All I can think is that Patterson has always wanted to write for "Murder She Wrote". Lindsay leaves San Fransisco for a break (why is not really important) and not only does she find that in this little seaside village where she's recuperating there has been a series of murders, but that these murders resemble one of her first unsolved cases "John Doe #24". Then, in perfect "Scooby Doo" fashion we're introduced to a slimy ex-porn star and a helpful, handsome, flirtatious mechanic. Which is the bad guy?? Do I have to tell you? Wasn't the "Scooby Doo" hint enough?

In "The Forgotten" we get a horrendous vandalism of a synagogue followed by some gory murders. There's lots of talk of Nazi atrocities, concentration camps, hate groups...but in the end the murders are linked with helping rich kids cheat on college entrance exams!!!!!!!!!! Ooooo. Scary.

And, one more thing... WHAT or WHO is "The Forgotten"???????????????

Maybe it is time to request the next Burke novel...

and rethink horror.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

In memory

From Friends blog entry


Wishing only lightness and joy to those passing over the rainbow bridge - particularly Winnie, Tayla, and Sayura. And, peace to those left behind. It has been a sad week.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Reason #7

From Singles 2009


It may be hard to ever leave Australia... though I guess it would work if I were leaving it to move to Italy.

OHWOW

Do you remember "The Jerk"? Steve Martin's character has left home. "I'm somebody! I'm somebody!" he exclaims. His name is in the telephone book.

Well, that is sort of the way I felt this morning. I was supposed to be doing my exercise but instead I was surfing the web. Every once in a while I do an odd search and this morning I was looking for photographs from home. "Versailles, Ohio".

For such a little place there are a surprising number of images. Lots of photos from an "old schools" project. Photographs of Brown's "Sweet Shop". Photographs of Ultimate Frisbee players enjoying "Poultry Days".

Then, I stumbled upon this. A short film included in the Los Angeles Comedy Festival including Fred Willard (!) called "Versailles".
Trapped by fate in the dismal nightmare that is Versailles Ohio, hopelessly damaged siblings Colin Tickler (David Hunt) and Summer Tickler-Hoogerhyde (Eve Gordon) are making a last ditch attempt at celebrity with a public access sports talk show financed by Summer's devoted husband Hoyt (Fred Willard).

Part talk-show, part commercial for Hoyt's sporting goods store, their weekly show "You're In Sports" is a comic Apocalypse Now, a journey up the river of human despair that starts sick and just gets sicker. Having finally landed a regional sports celebrity guest, Eddie Leeper, star left fielder for the Central Ohio Eagles, delays force them to take on local badminton legend Robert Sprague (Tom McGowan), deal with a love triangle and confront childhood demons in the form of a sock puppet named Honeybump.

That would be MY Versailles!!!!

Somehow, I must see this! I'm thinking this evening I should contact the film's director or the Comedy Festival Czar and suggest that they REALLY need to screen the film next year at Poultry Days.

My guess is that they would come away disappointed with all the comedy they missed by not doing their homework first!

Now, if you haven't done it yet, go watch the trailer. !! Go! Now!!

And, if you have never been to Versailles, you might want to know that this wasn't filmed there. We don't have pull in parking. We aren't NEARLY as big as this mythical town.

But, still....... WE'RE SOMEBODY!!!!!!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

In Memory



I am more of an "Off the Wall" sort of gal. Sure, "Thriller" had the cool-o video and Vincent Price. But, still. Nothing beats "Don't Stop til you Get Enough", "Off the Wall", and my favorite -

"You Got To Feel That Heat
And We Can Ride The Boogie
Share That Beat Of Love "

Do you know how certain memories- even though they are really not obviously significant events at the time, or even now - are etched deeply? When I hear this tune I'm 18 years old, driving in Fritz the Wondercar with my friend, Sandy. We're on State Route 41 and driving just outside of Covington. It is late afternoon and we're headed to the Springfield Mall. It is December and Michael Jackson is on the radio.

"There's A Magic That Must Be Love
Just Take It Slow
'Cause We Got So Far To Go"

1979. We are freshmen in college and we've completed our first quarter. It is almost Christmas. We're going to Springfield where we, for some reason, will leave the mall and drive into the city to a department store. There, we'll travel to the upper-most floor, the toy department, and for the first time ever I'll get my picture taken with Santa Claus. I take the photo and I send it off to my first true love.

"When You Feel That Heat
And We're Gonna Ride The Boogie
Share That Beat Of Love "

It's funny how Michael Jackson has made such a comeback in my life in the last couple of years: the dancing Phillipino prisoners, the GOMA lip-sync exhibit, and, of course, as patron saint of our "new" car. Even though they were all a bit silly, listening to the music was always fun. A cool breeze from my youth.

Rest in peace, Michael. Thank you for the music.

"And When The Groove Is Dead And Gone (Yeah)
You Know That Love Survives
So We Can Rock Forever, On "

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

One upping in the neighborhood

There is some sort of odd competition developing in our neighborhood. It started in January while Kevin was gone. Our across-the-street neighbor placed a cash register on their mailbox. (See below. Of course! I took a picture.)
From Singles 2009

It didn't last long. A few days. I wondered if maybe they had had a yard sale - one of those invisible sign free yard sales - that I had somehow missed. It could happen. I work odd hours.
From Singles 2009

Then a few weeks later, their next-door neighbor put this up on their mailbox. For days I honestly crept past it trying to get a good look. I was initially convinced it was a Virginia opossum - but later when I got a good look at the plant depicted decided I was wrong. Marsupials. They all look alike.

And, that's the way its been around here - until last weekend.

From Singles 2009

The pressure is on! I can only see one response...
From Our mailbox

Monday, June 22, 2009

My last week...

From Singles 2009

For the past 6 months repeated blood counts have come up short on neutrophils - those white cells with the mulilobular nuclei that fight infection. My doctor has measured my folate and checked for anti-nuclear antibodies and... and I'm fine. Now, I have an appointment with a hematologist. (Actually, a doctor like a hematologist but with an extra "a" in his title.) So, it may be my last week of being normal, of being healthy. Next week, or the week after, I might have a label or a disease. My best option is that I have some sort of idiopathic neutropenia - but I'll only score that after they test me for everything under the sun and come up empty handed.

We've had a cocker spaniel in the clinic lately. She has the opposite problem. She has too many neutrophils. Way too many. While she should have 12 (x 10 to the ninth) or less, at last count she had 64 (x10 to the ninth.) In speaking with her owner I advised a bone marrow biopsy. She "didn't want to put her through that. It would be too painful" to which I replied that I certainly hoped not as there was one looming in my future.

People generally ask if I'm worried. And, so far I'm not.

I'm fine. I feel fine.

Well, the ways I don't feel fine have nothing to do with neutrophils, I believe. Like, my left wrist hurts if I bend it all the way back. And, my right foot just fell asleep.

But, maybe I should be doing something different these days. Maybe I should be doing something that celebrates being healthy and normal. Maybe I should be walking the dog or eating more ice cream. Maybe I'll be looking back on this week with regret or nostalgia.

What do you do on your last week...

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Short Days Begone!

From Singles 2009



June 21. Summer solstice. Not.

Even though June 21 is really early summer, there was always something bittersweet about it for me. The longest day. It's all downhill from here.

Of course, now that I'm on the upside down side of the world, June 21 is the shortest day...and I am so, so, so ready for some more daylight.

I spoke with my mother this morning and she reminded me that on the solstice we're supposed to dance naked on the hill. But, its been raining all day - I think I'll skip the ritual this year.

On the other hand, at this time of year (if by this time I mean the first day of winter) my grandfather would repeat the adadge, "As days lengthens, winter strengthens". That is true here, too. Our coldest days are still ahead of us, most likely.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

This is going out to everyone!



This probably demonstrates how little I get out, but I only heard this for the first time today while I was shopping. I thought it was beautiful - so I scribbled down the line "This is going out to everyone" and did a google search this evening. From there, it was an easy move to youtube and then on to YOU.

Enjoy.

Some thoughts on the color RED

Since Father's Day is coming up this weekend and my father's favorite color was red...
From photo a day

From photo a day
From photo a day

From Singles 2009


I love this lamp. It hangs in the newly remodeled lobby of Kevin's office building...right above these very mod/retro black and white pocket chairs. Can anyone look at this and not think "sushi"?

Sounds - dusk at Chermside



They're lorikeets.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I haven't heard this in forever...



Well, at least not since Sunday night.

Funny, I looked up the lyrics this morning. I guess when you "know" a song when you are 12 or 13, you hear things and understand things differently. For the last 30 years I thought it was a song about a dog named "Bailey".

Still, a catchy canine tune... but maybe a bit disturbing.

You give me the creeps
When you jump on your feet
So get down, get down, get down
Keep your hands to yourself
I'm strictly out of bounds
From photo a day

...but I still want you around.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Time for a little Show tUne!



Put on a Happy Face!

Walking through the city yesterday



Because I am trying to rectify an inconvenient paucity of neutrophils, I found myself walking along Ernest St...when I found these. Since, June in black and white month - my salute to winter - these are, ahem, in black and white.

They look good with a blue sky, too.

Friday, June 12, 2009

A turn of phrase

"You hide your feelings like a cat in a spin dryer."

Clete Purcel in James Lee Burke's "Sunset Limited"

Sunset Limited

From Singles 2009


"The guy who was crucified against the barn wall?" he said. "The reason people don't buy conspiracy theories is they think "conspiracy" means everybody's on the same program. That's not how it works. Everybody's got a different program. They just all want the same guy dead. Socrates was a gadfly, but I bet he took time to screw somebody's wife."
I really enjoyed "Sunset Limited". Maybe it was because I read it in larger chunks over the course of only a week, but it certainly felt much more coherent than the last couple Burke novels I read. But, I really need someone else to read this (and soon) so I can ask a basic question...why all the Christian symbolism? What does it mean that "Jesus" has two children? What am I supposed to take from their behavior? their character? (I did try to find a discussion of this on Google, but gave up quickly. One writer posed most/all of Burke's work as "Christian" because they are about "redemption". While Robicheaux is obviously a good Catholic man, I don't think that redemption in and of itself defines or is exclusive to Christianity.)

"Cause you got an obsession over the man we stretched out on that barn wall. You gonna do right, no matter who you got to mess up. It ain't a compliment."

Now, for a little game. Can you pick out the killers? and who ends up dead?? Hint: some are killers, some die, some are both, and some neither. I guess that isn't much help. And, for the record, this isn't a complete list of characters.

A. Billy Holtzner: When I walked out the front door the man in the reclining chair had turned off the bug light and was smoking his cigar reflectively, one knee crossed over the other. I could feel his eyes on me, taking my measure. I nodded at him, but he didn't respond. The ash of his cigar glowed like a hot coal in the shadows.

B. Alex Guidry: I looked into the rearview mirror and saw him watching me from the end of the shell drive, his legs slightly spread, a leather riding crop hanging from his wrist.

C. Adrien Glazier: Her handwriting was filled with severe slants and slashes, with points in the letters that reminded me of incisor teeth.

D. Willie Cool Breeze Broussard: Cool Breeze looked like two hundred pounds of soft black chocolate poured inside jailhouse denims. His head was bald, lacquered with wax, shiny as horn, his eyes dropping at the corners like a prizefighter's.

E. Meagan Flynn: It was sprinkling now, and she wore an orange silk shirt and khaki slacks and sandals, her funny straw hat spotted with rain, her hair dark red against the gloom of the day, her face glowing with a smile that was like a thorn in the heart.

F. Swede Boxleiter: The shots had been taken from an upper story or guard tower with a zoom lens. They showed him moving through the clusters of convicts in the yard, faces turning toward him the way bait fish reflect light when a barracuda swims toward their perimeter.

G. Archer Terrebonne: When you dealt with Archer Terrebonne, you simply accepted the fact that his gaze was too direct and personal, his skin too pale for the season, his mouth too red, his presence too close, as though there was a chemical defect in his physiology that he wore as an ornament and imposed upon others.

H. Ruben Esteban: ...he answered, his eyes focused on the backs of his square, thick hands, his mouth curling back in neither a sneer nor a grimace but a disfigurement like the expression in a corpse's face when the lips wrinkle away from the teeth.

I. Harpo Scruggs: The movement caused him to pucker his mouth and exhale his breath. It touched my face, like the raw odor from a broken drain line.

J. Lila Terrebonne: She was light-hearted about her profligate life, undaunted by hangovers or trysts with married men, laughing in a husky voice in nightclubs about the compulsions that every two or three years placed her in a hospital or treatment center. She would dry out and by order of the court attend AA meetings for a few weeks, working a crossword puzzle in the newspaper while others talked of the razor wire wrapped around their souls, or staring out the window with a benign expression that showed no trace of desire, remorse, impatience, or resignation, just temporary abeyance, like a person waiting for the hands of an invisible clock to reach an appointed time.

Can't wrap my head around this

From Singles 2009


That would be FROST encasing my car windows this morning...and silly me in a pseudo-tropical climate without a window scraper! Fortunately, the defrost setting works and I made it to my 6:15 yoga class on time.

I totally get that this is winter...but I cannot reconcile that concept with the month of June.

And, the photo is a bit of a cheat. Sorry. The windows are covered with only dew this morning...at least at 8 AM.

Friday, June 05, 2009

"Where the Sidewalk Ends"

From Singles 2009


There is a place where the sidewalk ends
And before the street begins,
And there the grass grows soft and white,
And there the sun burns crimson bright,
And there the moon-bird rests from his flight
To cool in the peppermint wind.

Let us leave this place where the smoke blows black
And the dark street winds and bends.
Past the pits where the asphalt flowers grow
We shall walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And watch where the chalk-white arrows go
To the place where the sidewalk ends.

Yes we'll walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And we'll go where the chalk-white arrows go,
For the children, they mark, and the children, they know
The place where the sidewalk ends.


While I've known the title and cover for years and years and years, I had never read Shel Silverstein's "Where the Sidewalk Ends".

So, why read it now? That would be a result of "Title Recall" played at this year's On the Beach. The book wasn't well known - or maybe wasn't known would be a more apt description - by the other players (read this as Australian players.) So, I thought I'd pick up a copy and start it circulating through Aus.

It was OK. There are some poems I liked a lot. (Like the one above - and "The Generals"). I was surprised to learn that "The Unicorn" (song) was first "The Unicorn" (poem). In general, I found I liked the poems better if I only read a few at a time and if I read them aloud. Still, some that didn't work for me - I didn't like the cadence (or found it awkward) or the "smart alecky*" attitude and on some I had a problem with the rhyming structure. Maybe it is because I know them better (I love you long time) I much prefer the poems of Maurice Sendak: particularly "Chicken Soup with Rice" - brilliant!! and Robert Louis Stevenson: "A Child's Garden of Verses".



*Had to check the spelling and found synonym: weisenheimer. Haven't thought of that word in forever...probably not since my mother called me a weisenheimer!

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Chip crimes

From photo a day


In Queensland it will soon be required that all new pets are microchipped. This means that despite the fact that we've all been implanting microchips since time began, (well, sort of) we have to be instructed, evaluated, and certified. I did all this yesterday, as well as get lost.

So, all this talk about microchipping (and doing of microchipping) stimulated me to find out what I needed to do to register Zelda's chip in Australia. I figure (reckon) that no one is going to call either Avid or Home Again in the US if they find her wandering the streets of Brisbane. (And, even if they did, I am no longer residing in either Fayetteville, NC or Cleveland, OH!) I contacted the Australian Animal Registry and got the necessary paperwork.

Step 2 fill in paperwork including reporting her chip number.

So, I took her with me to work on Saturday evening to read her chip.

Zelda has....shhhhhhh....two chips.

I know. I know. I know. I know. That is ILLEGAL in Queensland - maybe ALL of Australia.

The problem was that I had given her a Home Again chip but when the time came to immigrate to Australia, she was required to have an Avid chip. So, she has two.

Neither of which scans.

Now, the dilemma. What do I do? Another illegal (illegaler?) chip??? Try to dig out old chips?? (How would you find them if you can't locate them with a scanner?)

Supposedly there are multiple format chip readers out there and maybe one of those would read one (or more) of Zelda's chips. My plan is to visit a couple of other clinics this weekend to see if anyone can read her- including animal control. But still, what if one of them will? What is the chance that this is the place she gets taken to when she needs to be reunited?????

Monday, June 01, 2009

First day of Winter

From photo a day


Yes. You heard me correctly.

And, to celebrate, I had Zelda groomed. Cunning plan - remove hair coat and she'll cuddle with me.

(As you can see, grooming is immediately followed by meditation. What you can't see, the next step is scratching at head until ribbon comes off.)

Roma Street Parklands with Kevin

This was Kevin's first trip to the Parklands. It was a beautiful May morning - sunny and cool. I enjoy sharing the garden with Kevin. I don't take as many photos, however.

You aren't seeing the dahlias that still look terrific. Or, the impatiens. The chrysanthemums are past their prime. Many beds are waiting to be planted. Several of the big fig trees have been toppled lately by storms.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Falling Man

From Singles 2009


He said, "It still looks like an accident, the first one. Even from this distance, way outside the thing, how many days later, I'm standing here thinking it's an accident."

"Because it has to be."

"It has to be," he said.

"The way the camera sort of shows surprise."

"But only the first one."

"Only the first."

"The second plane, by the time the second plane appears," he said,"we're all a little older and wiser."

Listened to this one on CD. I found the book to be really compelling - though the experience was oddly unemotional. Not what I'd expect from the topic of 9-11. Part of it was the reader. (In reading text from Amazon's "Search Inside" function, I am convinced a large part was the reader.) Part of it was the character of Keith- who was in the World Trade Tower. He is introduced as he is walking away from the site. He's covered in debris with multiple small injuries and in a state of shock. This emotional numbness follows him.

Falling Man focuses on 4 people. Keith - above. Lianne - his wife who is also coping with her mother's failing health, her father's (long past) suicide, and an obsession with Alzheimer's disease. Hammad - one of the terrorists who participated in the attack. And, the "Falling Man" - a performance artist who appears around Manhattan - falling from various buildings and bridges, dressed in business attire, then hanging in the pose of one of the men photographed jumping/falling from the North Tower.

From Singles 2009


They came out onto the street, looking back, both towers burning, and soon they heard a high drumming rumble and saw smoke rolling down from the top of one tower, billowing out and down, methodically, floor to floor, and the tower falling, the south tower diving into the smoke, and they were running again.


The story shifted in focus between characters, between time (pre-9/11, 9/11, post 9/11 - and in consequence, my interest and involvement in the story waxed and waned. While I think it is fair to say this is a story of the effect that 9/11 had on people, I must say that I found the end of the book to be most riveting. It is at the end that DeLillo returns to before the beginning and follows Hammad's experience on the plane and Keith's experience in the tower. I listened to those last chapters 3 or 4 or 5 times.

The pious ancestors had pulled their clothes tightly about them before the battle. They were the ones that named the way. How could any death be better?

Every sin of your life is forgiven in the seconds to come.

There is nothing between you and eternal life in the seconds to come.

You are wishing for death and now here it is in the seconds to come.


Photo attribution - Carolyn's brother.

Airfares cheap - LA to Sydney



I get this message every week from Travelocity, or so it seems. Amazing prices. This is the time.

Just learned about Kaki King this morning. Video shot in Sydney. Are you inspired?

Ya'll come down.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

The snails are on notice

From Singles 2009


All the snails. Inside and out.

I have had enough of my brave new seedlings being mowed over. From the 3 six-packs of petunias I purchased last month, only 4 plants remain. The zinnias are likewise decimated. And, those little blue flowers which I can't remember the name of - they are all the way gone to heaven. I stopped at the garden center on Thursday and perused the snail killing section - which to my dismay was very limited and all of it was toxic to Zelda and the marauding cats. I asked about getting copper or diatomacious earth - but was met with quizzical looks. I didn't think I had just hallucinated these options, so I looked for snail info online. They are there - as was a page from California instructing how to take snails from garden to plate.

Of course, I read that.

Then, last night, Kayla was good enough to take me home. It was raining and I had enticed her with the opportunity to gaze upon my sad, sad, sad aquarium. She says she's seen sadder - but then set me up with a plan. She thinks with some plant food that some of the plants will come back. One, in particular, she pointed out had good root structure. (I had to tell her that was the plastic plant.) She rescued my sinking heater and told me how to set the temperature. (I'm not sure why I thought that it was just something you plugged in and then adjusted the twisty-switch until the resulting tank temp was what you wanted. Dementia, maybe.) She taught me how my filter worked. (I bought it with the tank and without any sort of instruction/care guide.) But, first off, I have to buy some stuff to kill the snails in my tank.

They're getting a reprieve today, however. No time for buying snail-be-gone or beer. I'm still at work at 4:30 waiting for my shepherd to wake up after surgery...

Monday, May 25, 2009

Woke up this morning with this



with this playing in my head. Though, technically, it wasn't live.

thanks Tim.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Graffiti


Haven't posted any lately. These all live together near the Cultural Centre.

I only have one word for you...

From Singles 2009

Happy Birthday Dear Mother!

From Mom and Auntie Visit Brisbane!


Celebrating the fun of my mom! I love this photo - it captures the playfulness and glee that I associate with my mother. She is such a good sport. If we were in Ohio and crawling around the claustrophobic, ultra-packed space that is our storage unit, I could show you other photos of her posing as a chicken, or a pumpkin head, or as snoopy, or... She's the inspiration and most of the labor behind our family Halloween costumes.

I love you, Mom. Happy Birthday!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

In Memory of Junior

From Singles 2009


I told him his feet stinked.

"Maybe they really smell sweet," he says. "Think about it."

I told him he was crazy.

"No, no, no. Think about it," he says. "you know the whole existence, the very whole existence exists in our minds and in our minds only. I been thinking about this....Wait a minute," he says. "Listen. I mean all beliefs about everything are in our heads, not out there in the world. Tha's where everything is and always will be unless we take our brains out our heads, so that means that what somebody believes is their whole world. See?"

"No, I don't. What is this Philos'phy? Psycho'gy" Tate gets off on this crap sometimes. But I hadn't seen him this looped in fifteen years. "The difference between me and you, Tate," I said, "is I know stuff, and you know about stuff. Hit on that, you want to talk some philos'phy. Hit on that."

"Shit, Faison. You damn redneck," he says...


I re-read "In Memory of Junior". I read it the first time in about 1992. I was living in Wooster, Ohio teaching at The College of Wooster and I'd been there long enough that I had moved from Claudia's post (and office) to Anne's office - but not her position since she was in education. Anne was still there in Kauke hall - just up on the third floor. That move didn't get in the way of our lunch dates, however. It was about this time that we shared students. I was teaching a child development class (eegads) which was required for education majors. We were very amused by one young woman who called her Dr. G while I was Mrs. D.

At the time that was very funny. Sort of like this book.

Maybe it was because I knew enough of the story that I wasn't surprised enough to be as amused. Maybe my sense of humor has changed. Maybe it doesn't work as well when you read it in 3 page increments over 2 months. Maybe it is all the foul mood I've been in lately.

Anyway, the book starts out with a graphic presentation of the Bales family tree. You need that. There are lots of characters and they are, for the most part, related. Glenn and Laura, his second wife, are both bed-ridden and waiting to die. Whoever dies last will pass the property onto his or her children (Faison and Tate)/child (Faye). There is also the first wife (Evelyn) - who ran off leaving her 6 mo old infant, her brother (Grove) who wants to be buried in NC - now, grandchildren (Morgan and Junior) as well as assorted neighbors and friends. The story is told in first person narrative, though every few pages the identity of the narrator changes.

It isn't really a high action sort of story. It is more like you are listening in on a family reunion with folks gossiping about each other. They do tell some amusing stories and Edgerton has certainly captured their voices well.

That quote above by Tate - that is the sort of things we psychologists think about. But, what I really love is Faison's responding criticism of his brother.
"You won't ever get over going to college, Tate, you know that?"


Damn. It is a curse.

Bee Dogs

From Singles 2009


Several years ago Kevin sent me a link to the Bee Dogs website. Little did he know that Zelda and I had already been indulging in beedog-ness way before. Wayyy before. Anyway, I've always intended to send in one of Z's bee photos - but it was only today that I followed through! (This stimulated by the link on the Pet Photo Booth Project site.) Zelda is no half hearted bee dog, as you see. She embodies bee-ness...here doing a little pollinating.

If you've never considered bee dogs, you might want to take a look at the website. Bee dogs are legion.